Thursday, December 20, 2012
The soldier stared out at the desolate horizon. He wasn't sure how long he had been at the outpost, but he knew he was the only one left. Supplies were all but gone, but he still managed to groom himself and care for his uniform. He still marked his time down, kept his schedule, and took pride in his daily tasks.
The cold bit hard today though. There was little light, the clouds covered the sun. He saw no animals, not even the snakes he had seen near the river when he was first stationed could be found. Did the cold drive them away? He wondered.
The cold bit hard today though. There was little light, the clouds covered the sun. He saw no animals, not even the snakes he had seen near the river when he was first stationed could be found. Did the cold drive them away? He wondered.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Monday, December 17, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
There was only me now.
I was confused in this new world. The rules weren't the same...I wasn't sure what I should be doing. I thought of the man and the cup he had given me. If I drank from it I would forget, he promised. This was all part of my descent before I could come back up again.
When would that happen I asked. He told me that wasn't my concern and to go deeper into the dark and forget what came before.
Deeper! Deeper into the dark you go!
I could hear his voice as I entered the shadowy path before me. There was little light to see exactly where I was going. As I walked down further and further I could not see back, and it almost felt like I was in a cavern...but that was impossible.
Embrace it! Its what you paid for!
I was confused in this new world. The rules weren't the same...I wasn't sure what I should be doing. I thought of the man and the cup he had given me. If I drank from it I would forget, he promised. This was all part of my descent before I could come back up again.
When would that happen I asked. He told me that wasn't my concern and to go deeper into the dark and forget what came before.
Deeper! Deeper into the dark you go!
I could hear his voice as I entered the shadowy path before me. There was little light to see exactly where I was going. As I walked down further and further I could not see back, and it almost felt like I was in a cavern...but that was impossible.
Embrace it! Its what you paid for!
Monday, December 10, 2012
Then something curious happened. In the midst of all the screaming, stench, blood, and puss I closed my eyes and saw them. Children's candies and crayons. The colors of the wax pencils were vibrant, I could feel the texture of the paper and the smell of wax. I saw the semi transparent wrapping of the butterscotch candy, the kind that would be in a glass bowl. Vivid enough to pull me away from the insanity of the reality I was experiencing.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
I was standing behind her. The screen door opened and she pushed open the the front. We were inside. I looked to the left. An oil painting of two young boys, one holding a sail boat was there. The faces were slightly off, their eyes were hollow.
"Creepy picture".
I nodded in agreement and followed her inside, into the dark.
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I have to stop buying suits.
"Creepy picture".
I nodded in agreement and followed her inside, into the dark.
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I have to stop buying suits.
Friday, December 7, 2012
I couldn't breathe. It wasn't that I was being choked, or that I had a heavy weight on my chest. It was the air. It was heavy and stale. Similar to a port authority bus station. It seemed like the place didn't have a single window, there was no circulation.
I need to be able to breathe deep, full breaths in order to function. I had gotten used to breathing into the pit of my stomach through my nose, feeling the cool air circulate through my lungs...These deep breaths sustained me.
I need to be able to breathe deep, full breaths in order to function. I had gotten used to breathing into the pit of my stomach through my nose, feeling the cool air circulate through my lungs...These deep breaths sustained me.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Steven seagul drinking games.
Everytime seagal slaps someone you take a drink. Note, a slap can be on the face or back of the head. Clothslines and palm strikes do not count. Slapping children and animals counts.
Every time someone compliments seagal you take a drink. Direct compliments and indirect compliments count. Seagal telling stories of his own exploits count as well.
Everytime seagal slaps someone you take a drink. Note, a slap can be on the face or back of the head. Clothslines and palm strikes do not count. Slapping children and animals counts.
Every time someone compliments seagal you take a drink. Direct compliments and indirect compliments count. Seagal telling stories of his own exploits count as well.
Friday, November 30, 2012
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Workout 11/28
Medicine ball routine 1 x 3
Medicine ball routine 2 x 3
10 x 10 double 20kilo kettlebell squat
10 x 10 elevated body row
10 x 10 dips
This was horrible. Apparently jack daniels does not contribute to effective training. My body rows were garbage and I failed to reach ten on all exercises multiple times. I still crushed the squats though.
Medicine ball routine 1 x 3
Medicine ball routine 2 x 3
10 x 10 double 20kilo kettlebell squat
10 x 10 elevated body row
10 x 10 dips
This was horrible. Apparently jack daniels does not contribute to effective training. My body rows were garbage and I failed to reach ten on all exercises multiple times. I still crushed the squats though.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
My Jiu Jitsu coach, Josh, my teammate Russ, me, and my strength and conditioning coach, Gavin.
Medicine ball routine, 100 double 16k squats, 100 leg elevated body rows, alternate medicine ball routine.
My body failed on some of the rows, but the squats were easier than I thought.
Jiu Jitsu feels shitty and unfocused. It will get better though. Drilling reverse de la riva to back take to x guard. X guard is so strong for sweeps, I'd really like to get good at that entry.
Medicine ball routine, 100 double 16k squats, 100 leg elevated body rows, alternate medicine ball routine.
My body failed on some of the rows, but the squats were easier than I thought.
Jiu Jitsu feels shitty and unfocused. It will get better though. Drilling reverse de la riva to back take to x guard. X guard is so strong for sweeps, I'd really like to get good at that entry.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
Friday, November 16, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Tuesday morning. Back to heavy strength and conditioning training while I work nonstop and go to school. It keeps my mind future forward and unable to dwell on anything. It's exhausting, but really good.
Contact lenses are the best thing ever.
I'm embarrassed to list all the supplements I'm on. Love sups bro! Nothing illegal or from Mexico though.
Contact lenses are the best thing ever.
I'm embarrassed to list all the supplements I'm on. Love sups bro! Nothing illegal or from Mexico though.
Friday, November 9, 2012
I'm writing a lot more these days. I'm only supposed to write things that reflect well on my marketing image, so I made sure not to include the piece I wrote on the intimacy of sexual torture on this blog. Its a shame, because I feel like it was good writing.
I'm just getting iver a terrible fever. It feels good to be relatively sane again. I need a haircut, a shave, and a massage wouldn't hurt. Listen to me.
I'm drilling this "over the shoulder" sweep from reverse de la riva. Its different Jiu Jitsu than I'm used to. It forces me to look at the same thing in a different way, which is good.
Theres a smile.
I'm just getting iver a terrible fever. It feels good to be relatively sane again. I need a haircut, a shave, and a massage wouldn't hurt. Listen to me.
I'm drilling this "over the shoulder" sweep from reverse de la riva. Its different Jiu Jitsu than I'm used to. It forces me to look at the same thing in a different way, which is good.
Theres a smile.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Friday, October 12, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
Monday, July 30, 2012
Alex Bedenenko, Josh Macin and me are going to train together. Its exciting, our attempt to drill and collaborate and become ready for the next level together. The goal is world championship victories, brown belts and overall excellence.
My knee rehabilitation is slow and tiring. I have to take it slow, which is good
My good friend Mila heads off to medical school. Amazing girl that will be missed.
Still must pick new classes. Tomorrow...
Going to stay very active now. Rest and settling in from the injury is over.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
In Tom Wolfe's novel The Bonfire of the Vanities,
Larry Kramer, a Bronx District Attorney and one of the novel's main
protagonists, prides himself on his strong sternocleidomastoids, which
he "fans out" in front of women to help give himself a more tough,
masculine appearance. However, in the last chapter he is publicly
described by his client Maria Ruskin as "doing something weird with his
neck", which deeply wounds his ego.
Friday, June 29, 2012
"The BALCO
scandal brought to light an as-yet unsubstantiated (but widely
published) account of Major League Baseball's all-time leading home-run
hitter Barry Bonds' supplemental chemical regimen that included Modafinil in addition to anabolic steroids and human growth hormone."
AMAZING.
AMAZING.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Update son what!
Finished school, been competing like a mofo. Mundials in less than a week! Where to begin...
Its apparent to me that my face has changed significantly from BJJ. I have scars over my eyes, my ears are now fucking TERRIBLE (the right one especially sticks out), I am much more chimp like in appearance.
I'll be competing at the mundials in a week. I've trained so hard for this one, nothing else has mattered. I did two tournaments on saturday, which was brutal, but great fun. The whole thing, the plane trip, the hotel, the comp against the best in the world is something that I think about daily.
When doing something like this, its really important to surround yourself with the right people, with positivity. I was so unaware of all of these factors when I started, I was just playing pretend Jiu Jitsu. Now, that I've actually given my body and face to this sport (and will do so for awhile), I'm getting a much more mature idea of what it takes to compete and win.
I look forward to competing at the mundials.
School was a mixed bag. I pray to teh heavens my vampire teacher takes mercy on me for that class. My final cut class was very overwhelming, and I most certainly would have failed if not for help. But, some great projects came out of it. I'm really happy and proud of what little work I did in that class. I'll upload it soon.
When I get back from California I'll register for classes. Maybe earlier...I do have some time to rest.
New York is beautiful right now. Its raining. I miss the different faces I would see in classes, the who are you looks, the excitement of new possibilities. Fall! I hhave to start writing more. Must. Have to. Will.
Finished school, been competing like a mofo. Mundials in less than a week! Where to begin...
Its apparent to me that my face has changed significantly from BJJ. I have scars over my eyes, my ears are now fucking TERRIBLE (the right one especially sticks out), I am much more chimp like in appearance.
I'll be competing at the mundials in a week. I've trained so hard for this one, nothing else has mattered. I did two tournaments on saturday, which was brutal, but great fun. The whole thing, the plane trip, the hotel, the comp against the best in the world is something that I think about daily.
When doing something like this, its really important to surround yourself with the right people, with positivity. I was so unaware of all of these factors when I started, I was just playing pretend Jiu Jitsu. Now, that I've actually given my body and face to this sport (and will do so for awhile), I'm getting a much more mature idea of what it takes to compete and win.
I look forward to competing at the mundials.
School was a mixed bag. I pray to teh heavens my vampire teacher takes mercy on me for that class. My final cut class was very overwhelming, and I most certainly would have failed if not for help. But, some great projects came out of it. I'm really happy and proud of what little work I did in that class. I'll upload it soon.
When I get back from California I'll register for classes. Maybe earlier...I do have some time to rest.
New York is beautiful right now. Its raining. I miss the different faces I would see in classes, the who are you looks, the excitement of new possibilities. Fall! I hhave to start writing more. Must. Have to. Will.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
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